Proposal 10•01

Christina DeSario
Mr. George- AP English 11
10•01•09
Proposal
Proposal

“I just want you to listen to me for a little while. I’m not the best person in the world, and I’m not the best person for you by far, but there’s something in me that’s stronger than my fear of being rejected or of sounding stupid. There’s something in me that’s stronger than all of that, and I don’t know why it’s there, and it scares me, but I want you to know exactly what I’m thinking, because if I don’t tell you, I think I’ll just spend the rest of my life wishing I had, and that would hurt more than any answer you give me now.
“This is not something I’m used to doing, or something I’ve ever wanted to do, but you make me almost hate myself and all that I’ve stood for. Every time I do something wrong or unfair, I cringe at the thought of how you’d react to it. All I want is to be the person you would want me to be; the person that you’d be proud of. The person you’d want to be around and associate yourself with. I’m always so scared that you’d be upset or disappointed in me that I’m constantly working on myself and improving myself in a way that I thought was silly for other love-struck idiots would do. (all this was bolded)
“You make me so happy. Every time I hear your voice or someone says your name, this really annoying feeling runs through me, and I feel like I’m going through a black tunnel on a roller coaster, straight down, with no seat belts. I just want to be able to make you feel the same way, because ever felt more complete than when that feeling zaps through me. I want you to be able to understand it, and I think I would die if you felt this way for another person.
“I don’t say this often, and I won’t ever say it again, so listen. I love you more than I’ve loved anyone. Ever. You’re not just a person I could picture spending my life with, you’re the person I need to spend my life with. I want to protect you. I want to make you laugh. I want to be the person to make you cry, make you mad, and every other emotion in between. I want to be the person to help you up and carry you when you aren’t strong enough to do it yourself. I want to stand by you when you think you’re standing alone. I want to stand up for you when you don’t even know where to stand! I want to know what’s on your mind. I want you to tell me the most vile thoughts in your head. Nothing about you is bad to me. I’m amazed by everything you say and do.
“We get along so well. We almost never fight, and we think so much alike, it’s almost scary. We like the same things and we can finish each other’s sentences. I look up to you for strength, and whether you know that or not. You’re my hero, and I want nothing more that to be yours. Even that would be so much more than I could have ever asked for.
“I know that I sound silly and pathetic, but I’d never leave you to be by yourself. I’m not the kind of person to do that. I’m just a person swallowing their pride and asking the most amazing person in the world to go through the rest of their life with me.” (this last part was bolded)